♥

I'm ballsy when it comes to many things, but never (ever) when it comes to matters of the heart, and I DON'T KNOW WHY.
I'm scared of falling for..


Love murdered in Brooklyn, sound the alarm
I tried to practice my war-like tactics, but in the clutch of your touch
my armour?
just collapses.....................

Fri- Went & got nail fill & Nordstrom shopping

Sat- Drove hella far & woke up hella early (3:30am) to Niketown LA to pick up the 11/12. Scored & got the 3/20 pack for a cool $77 (as opposed to the og pricetag of $150+) ..wore the 3's to work later in tha day omg had everyone protecting their neck..haha its nothin y'all :) lmao

Sun- An unfamiliar feeling of being well-rested at work for once (OKAY!) droppin knowledge to these customers about footwear, tryna sell some running shoes and running game as usual, etc...
Jose G goes "you have the best shoes out of all the girls that work at the store"
haha you don't even realize, my friend.

stop me pleaseee
pickups for the month of Dec:

Jordan VIII (playoffs)
Jordan XXII's
Jordan XI's (bronx flava)
Jordan XI/XII pack
Nike Blazer
Jordan III/XX pack
Nike Rejuvinate
Nike SB (shoe goo)

The weekend was so fun in the LBC,
even with a two night average of sleep less than an hour

XXoo

[ try to picture a girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though a home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds]

the weekend was epic
though my system is down for the time being (sick w. the ill sore throat) and
im runnin on that lowercase game,
the past few days have been pleasurable

friday
day two of sickness, yet still manage to down a 40oz.
and head to DTFullertan wit my box of chocolates
danced wit a cute choco man, who later extended his services to me ahahah
a 40+ sippy sippy from other liquor dranks= good buzz.
Mama C knws i'm a lightweight (which i had to find out the hard way), so i think this is a great new strategy for me!
i tried to box w. security and was slapping cd's booty, but i knw exactly what i was doing! went home at 4am

saturday
geez what a LONG shift 7am-4pm yet i survived.
the 40% sale encouraged me to pick up the WMNS Jordan VI's, and a pair of Nike Rejuvenates for ma mami ($8).
+ PACQUIO the mexican killer defeats De La Hoya in the 8th round!! EPIC

sunday
two oranges and alot of h20 will hopefully get me through this cold cause its crampin up ma style!
+ 6 New pickups in the last 2 weeks EPIC!

The path might not always be clear, but the vision just across the horizon will ultimately help us withstand the test of time. I'm strong and unbreakable, but yo I'm passionate & I feel. Not to say I'm sensitive, but who am I to front what I'm feeln'???

*****Yesterday I worked 3pm-8am in Footwear, pulling PO's from offsite wit the crew, doing signage and basically scrambling 'til the corporate visit scheduled at 9am. There is a time for everything, and avoiding the unecessary will help us run our business. So thankful ma homegirls help me sort out the bullsht from the real.

*****On another note, ahahahahaha I got 99 problems but ma kicks aint one. Cheesy but I'm sorry, my sneakergame so mean it might insult ya. Help me???

everything clear?

"There comes a time - for everyone - to sit down& assess what is THERE and what is NOT THERE".
Ideally, I'd like to strip everyone down to their pure essential. Bypass the bullsht, and truly TRULY see people as no more/no less than what they are. It's amazing how many masks are worn by countless individuals daily, from around the world. ROLES we play. Some roles are granted to us by our Universal creater, others we have manifested ourselves. And tell me, how much of what you portray to others around you, represents your DeepDeep core? How many people can you say are intimitately aware about the very Fabric of your being?

I don't front. I keep sht real. But there is no way I can grant you access inside these walls unless you have deemed yourself worthy/capable of scaling these glass walls that ultimately house the queen within.

Until then, I'll whisper.

Are you a boss or what?

How many people you know who came to do, what they really said they gon' do?

Tomorrow is one of the most beautiful promises in life. It's a window through which we envision our highest aspirations come to fruition. Each experience is a lession, and that's what grandmaster 50 (half dollar) tries to convey to 14+ hopeful entrepreneurs. Consider it a watered down version of Donald Trump's "The Apprentice", catered to a wider audience of young viewers, no previous business knowledge required. With a dash of that trademark Bunim-Murray dramaa ingredient, pre RealWorld/Brooklyn series, MTV knows its audience and serves up another reality banger. Dressed in a pressed suit, with an offer of a 100k investment, 50 (half dollar) keeps it strictly business when he asks: "Do you got what it takes to be a boss?"

it's nothin: c.r.e.a.m. queens get the money

Ooh I'm getting wiser.

Learning to rise above the dust, and brush ma shoulders off.
Today's shift: 7am-8pm. Tomorrow: 5am-6pm.

And in the end it is all worth it, when you KNOW what it is your working for.
It really is as Simple as that, ladies & gentlemen..
"the seat of knowledge is the head and wisdom in the heart. the wise woman will purpose to pursue both knowledge and wisdom. she combines the best of what she knows with the depth of what she feels..."

what are your values in life?

honeybuns?

I bought this cd, entitled 'Jay love Japan' (rip)
and the sixth track, called 'Believe in God' just really hits the soul man.
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL. MMM.

and the everyday grind, with the miniscule faults that accompany it - just keep in mind: "Nothing is impossible with God"- Luke 1:37

not guilty

tonight at approximately 9:05 p.m. the police caught me riding dirty.

i received my first speeding ticket of my 6 year driving career, and i cried like a b. i couldn't find proof of insurance amidst the pile of papers under the dashboard, and my tears kept flowing like nas on any verse. but after the officer said "show it to (them) when you find it" and drove away, i wont lie. i wanted to beat the mothafcka up. i was yellin and really wanted to slam a ho.

when you have more time than money, use your time. and vice versa. so when the letter comes in the mail? i'm pleading 'not guilty'. mothafcka prove it. i'm requisting a continuance of the court date, a police deposition, and real keen on finding any discrepencies in his notes. with approximately 100,000+ tickets written daily (and the average cost being $150), speeding ticket revenue amounts to a 6 billion industry- enough to make the Forbes 500 list.

only about 2-3% of traffic tickets are contested, and some 20-25% of officers fail to show up at the court date. I'm going to do some legal research, and go head to head and fight. mfcka

Dead Poet's Society

"We are dreaming of tomorrow and
tomorrow isn't coming,
We are dreaming of a glory that
we don't really want.
We are dreaming of a new day
when the new day's here already.
We are running from the battle
when it's one that must be fought.


And still we sleep.


We are listening for the calling
but never really heeding,
Hoping for the future
when the future's only plans.
Dreaming of the wisdom
that we are dodging daily,
Praying for a savior
when salvation's in our hands.


And still we sleep.


And still we dream.
And still we pray.
And still we fear.
(pause)
And still we sleep."

massage

i'd love a massage right now.

today i had work from 10-7:20pm and i didn't even take my lunch until near 6. so when i clocked back in, there was only a few minutes left. yesterday i was happy cause i was in footwear, but today's shift went by pretty fast. *happyface* we we're doing apparel moves, and my co-workers were entertaining me wit their self-inflicted overdramatic evaluations of situations. I called my co-worker a hoodrat, and she flipped cause she only heard 'rat', which in the hood implies a 'snitch', and apparently, there's no other crime worse than that lol. Another co-worker was shaking from stress over which seasonal workers were going to be kept (only 5 of 7), and told by our Manager Jason that they were probably "not going to keep you" ow.

I have Tue/Wed off, in which a gameplan is underworks to organize/sew/fix/sell our clothing. Also, I requested Sep 24-26 off for my b-day extravaganza! :-)

p.s. im straight obsessed about law&order.

hellyeah you got the right to remain silent!!

coming through

I'll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day through.

I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day;
In every thing that's light and gay.
I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you
In the morning sun
And when the night is new.
I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you.


Are you a believer? Cause baby I am. Rise like the sun & see more than three dimension. Quote me baby.

so wsup

two weeks after moving out, i'm in that transition phase son.
into adulthood. wow

anyway i'm going to eat a peanut butter cookie, get ready for work, and study for my final tomorrow.

I am sore

Sore from moving all ma sh** from the apartment to mi madre's humble abode in Moreno Valley. DUDE. I don't know how this is gonna work out - I've basically have been living on "my own" for the past four years, and now it looks like I'll be settling in mama's nest for a bit.

I can tell you one thing though - I'm ready to build. I'm ready to get down. I'm going to get my money right & make it* happen

*=big thangs

Yo

Can I get a minute to speak wit you? If you don't love hip hop, check two things.
1)Your pulse
2)The rhyme

Hip hop be like the love of my life, yo. There aint another way to explain it. And these cats that have elevated the game beyond duplication -De La Soul, Tribe, Pharcyde- continue to inspire and propel me to new heights. With their rhythm, their words- their very essence. During their performances, Elainne and I found ourselves at the forefront of the love pit (mosh pit lol). Getting as close as we could to witness splendorneSS.

Favorite performers: + Pharcyde ("Drop", "Passing me by", "She said"- shouting the lyrics word for word) + Method Man + Tribe ("Bonita Applebum", "Find a way"), De La Soul ("Much More" <3 )

Bomb night minus getting lost on the 215 South that become North several times.

Rock the Bells: San Francisco anyone? haha
P.S. IM QUITE ANGRY I HAVE YET TO GET THE CHANCE TO WATCH THE OLYMPICS CAUSE I BE WORKING WORKING WORKING. UGHHHH!

Steady Rockin'

& super geeked out!!!

The concept of forever intrigues me. Suppose an entity such as time continues to multiply and never ceases to exist. Suppose you love somebody so much and Mother time will never take you away from that person? I got this special blend that peaks early in the morning - it goes 1/2 optimism, 1/2 faith.

What the world sees as a cup half empty/ full, God sees as overflowing. And its this inner faith that moves me towards walking this lit path - because I want to.

I want to be beautiful, and fly
As High as Natural Gets, son.

That's what you workin' wit.
Oh um Wednesday was the bomb. I went wit my co-worker MamaC& her friend to Melrose/LaBrea/Fairfax and we just did our thing. Picked up our gear like we were supposed to. She wit the three pairs of shoes (ballin) and I wit one Huf fitted (its cute) and one A tribe Called Quest vinyl, one cd, and one Peanut Butter Wolf cd.
On top of it all, we cruised on over to Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles. The amount of deliciousness put into the Mac and Cheese just wasn't fair.
Wednesday was the bomb.

P.S. I got 5 free Nike SB posters at Union cause the guy who works there is nice.
I wanted to holla

40oz.

I can see right through them like an empty 40 bottle, of o.e.

(cause theyre shallow and hollow)
and I think they can't swallow, the truth
because it hurts
but this is how i put it down, this is my earth my turf

the worth of my birth is a billion
And you know what time it is
I'm going to make a million

---------------

today i worked til midnight, cause tomorrow the store is gonna get a few visitors from corporate. i get mad frustrated when the zone chart places me in a section other than footwear. its like telling a fish to crawl. muthafcka i'm a champion swimmer. anyhooty, everybody ordered pizza, and i helped myself to a free slice haha. oh and one of my co-workers was trippin, swearin like she the head btch in charge. i wanted to tell her, muthafcka your mistaken. Anyways, I kept it classy cause you already know I'm as light as a rock & RESILIENT AS FUCK!

so tomorrow: bounce back
so tomorrow: i will be a better person, than i am today.

S

Lady’s lovin my music is like some sex shit,
N***as trying to grip up my mic like it’s a dick.
Run around the cornner to pick up the new shit,
Toss this in the deck so niggas can catch rep.
I’m the motherfucker gripping the mic like it’s a joke,
N***as fall in love with the music like it’s a hole.
Put donw your mic you lost your whole goal,
You take it to seriously like it’s a gamble.
Fuck this rap shit I listen to classical,
In the studio you ask usual,of the
-my lyrical
-of bitches who you would know.
I’m out of this cause you wanna be below.
Yall n***as in love with the s,

Did you catch alla that?

Presently thinking of a master plan.




Question: "You don't lie, do you?"
Answer: "No. I don't have to."

-pretty in pink

level up

Are you ready for some real sht?
First sign of a lazy blogger: recycled pictures haha. Yo I'm just being resourceful. Anyway today I took my Econ midterm, worth 40% of my grade. Almost the whole enchilada. Anyhooty, the material wasn't difficult but I didn't come as hard as I would have preferred - in retrospect. But like always, refining my approach & preparing for the Final ..two weeks.

Next on the agenda: sneakers. My beloved alifes have been sittin in their boxes, a reflection to the state of my position in this shoe game. A point I'd like to stress is the length of time I've been up on this. This aint nothin new honey, I've been doing this for years & now its time to come back and more correct than ever

Quit sleepin' folks.
Muthafucka you are too comfortable.

in less than 24 hours, ive exhausted lil waynes "too comfortable" song. It hit a weak spot for me - mainly cause 90% of the radio is straight garbage.

But the concept is cute. And lil wayne isn't exactly a Nas - but he does have that irresistable idiot hoodrat swagger guaranteed to get you going - in the fast lane.
He doesn't possess the lyrical wit of Biggie "Girls pee pee when they see me" but he does share a similar swagger "I got that good love girl, you didn't know?" And though I cringe to see youngins idolize a thug rapper like weezy, its much better than viewing youtube's of caucasian males imitating soulja boy's weak attempt of making a club anthem. But the closest thing in comparison - or worthy of analytical critique and termed "post-Biggie" would be dom. Kennedy, a local act by way of Long Beach. Tracks like "Still lookin" and "watermelon sunday" leave me feeling refreshed, just like what any listener to a tight kick beat and verse can attest to.

Im sayin

Yeah, it's no sweat no sweat
I will never 1, 2, 3 4-get
About you, your love, your sex
You know I work you out like bowflex
Our jokes. no stress. love.
Live life. proceed. progress.
Make sure the neighbors get no rest
We can get together, never disconnect
Your back, your neck
Funny how that song hasen't got old yet - to us.
So let's project, you stay in
Never in - correct
FACE!

I figured it out

Yesterday I spent nearly the whole day at Barnes & Noble

Reading articles from magazines such as Time, Newsweek, and various Fashion/ Sewing publications. I read books targeted towards hip hop producer-wannabe types, and self-help books designed to live your best life now.

I can spend the whole day reading at Borders or Barnes.

Today I met with an academic advisor, Katherine who was extremely kind & processed all my papers for graduation. I asked her, "What's your educational background?" from which a whole conversation ensued, entailing our own personal interests. Hers being English, and the summer's she would spend reading books instead of playing outside with her friends. Her desire to write about her families unique quest of the American Dream, and the undeniable passion she has for English, her former major. It was a short encounter, but it reminded me of all the good things in life. How I have so much more to go, and the journey I have to reach my innermost and deepest desires. Before I left, she bid me adieu with a warm smile saying "I better hear in 10 years that you have your own business!" (I had answered her previous question of what my plans were) And I only wish you the best as well!

There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere, and many of us will have to pass through the valley of the shadow of death again and again before we reach the mountaintop of our desires.
Nelson Mandela

summer in full effect

Finally spent some time wit ma familia, heading out full force in LA. Here we are, at Portos for lunch - fueling ourselves for the day of shopping that is to come!

These famous cheese rolls are street crack for every Glendale & surrounding areas native. Try it once, and you'll come back for more. You can bet on it.

Beforehand, we hit up Melrose & I sold off my stored treasures. Collectively, we received a $65 check from Wasteland & $56 in store credit at another Vintage store. All in all, I was pretty satisfied from the amount credited to us.
Afterwards, we headed to Americana, the new shopping complex reminiscent of Victoria Gardens/ The Grove (same building company). A key feature of the leisurely stroll included Vegas-esque watershows, built from the same company that constructed Bellagios famed waterfronts

Favorite stores included Juicy Couture, where my gold fetish hit overdrive. I also had my eye on a ghettoblaster boombox over at Urban Outfitters. By the end of the summer, I will hopefully get my money right & come home wit that! Since that was not the case, I settled for nerdy glasses & a bass-amplifying attachment for regular earpieces. Also, Elainne & I also rode the trolly, which circles the area every 15 minutes, giving visitors a complete tour of its premier attractions.

Passing through Glendale Galleria, a soft and tender reminder of yesterday's outcome:
We bouncin back, no doubt.
"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it."
Michael Jordan
4 stars! :-)

Today close to 500 Business Administration graduates attented the 8pm graduation ceremony held at UCR. Several key speakers formulated generic "your no longer students now" speeches meant to commemorate the years of work that we, as students, have put into this institution of higher learning in order to gain an expensive, respected accolade by way of a "degree".

A rather lackluster compilation of google-able inspirational quotes accompanied the night. I was surprised and half expecting/wanting Professor Jasso to come up on stage and yell at us to "Make it Happen!" & "Be somebody!". Instead, I patiently waited until the last speaker read his speech through. I did, however, get chills when a student speaker mentioned setting the course curve, and the endless hours spent in the Rivera library. I did, however, recount the many ways in which I have grown over the years. And I do appreciate, those who have stuck with me all these years - all the support & love gets support & love back!

Congratulations Roomies, we have come so far!

Yet as Common says we have yet "so far to go"!

Keep pushin, Leslie.

My Passion. My desire. It is forever my desire to keep striving.

weekend before finals week

It's most definitely time to buckle up & show these mothafckas what it is all about.

I'm writing my gameplan for today & tomorrow & hopefully I will fck
wit it. I can't wait til the Lakers game tomorrow - - I know we got this.

On another note, I theorize wit some of the best in the game, but I do occasionaly refine my approach; its necessary to remain adaptable and consistent with the present times. I'm not providing you with clear definitions; I'd rather not exploit names and specific events - I'd much rather stay true to it.

Sneakers + business + beats + books + game theory have been my core competencies for the past few years now. Way Before streetwear and "hiphop" became a fashionable trend, I would swim in its fountain of culture independently & without force .. and now we got cats who swear they still love h.e.r., swearing they hip hop when they don't know who Big Daddy Kane is?

--- ON another note, I am consistently liking dudes who don't know I am alive & attracting attention from those I aint tryna fck with. What am I doing wrong?


--- ON a next level note: I WANT A PUPPY! For the past few weeks I've been extremely enamored by our next door neighbors doggie, Rico. He makes my heart swoon!

--- ON a humble note: I've been rebelling against my hoodrat chick roots and messing with flip flops. Its very eclipse-like cause you'll only see it every couple years

FCKSWITIT.com

Q:

Q: Can you hear the Angels sing?

A: I do :-)

sweet memory

Such a sweet memory
Baby - you and me
And how we used to beautifully young
(I wonder how much you've changed)
Would we have the same chemistry?
Could you still make me laugh?
Could we still have a blast?
Are you happy? Have you've done everything you wanted to?

(To sit and smile)
Thinkin about ya
Wondering how ya doin now

How you doin, baby?
How you doin

Today is Monday, June 2 2008.
Time is that non-renewable resource that we must manage well.
Academically, its game time baby.
But you move me to excel

Your sweet memory. When I am weak, mentally drained
You massage me back to life
With your rhythm, your words, your spirit.
You most definitely move me










for a few seconds
God allows me to hear
His angels sing

reality is a sliding door

so I realize that I'm a bit hesitant in writing about my personal issues over at my other blog. Don't get me wrong - I aint tryna front, but I do leave the wonderful details to those who really would like to know.

Or for those who enjoy learning with an open mindset.

"Don't be so quick to judge - you may not know the hardships people don't speak of" - murs.

you may have noticed I drop quotes with the quickness. Some are inspirinational insights conjoured up by some of the greatest revolutionary people of our time, while others are from tortured yet sensitive poets aka emcees. I read like a fortune cookie because I know living is an artform, and I treat it as such.

I'm trying to learn.
I'm not trying to say I am without fault.
I'm honest.

One thing that baffles me ( yes..baffles. wsup now webster?) is when individuals create unecessary drama for themselves. I was sitting peacefully on my living room couch, tryna read for 109. T-unit was on the right. When our neighbors started actin like hooligans and this beezy downstairs starts yellin in the most incredibly annoying chalks-up-on-the-chalkboard type tone that my bloodpressure instantly accelerated. Yes I got heated.....

but it just reminded me - most problems that we have are trivial; most problems are those that we create for ourselves.

So free yourself.

it's a wrap

The Memorial Weekend is officially coming to a close, and I am momentarily retiring from the full-shift game. Friday (5-10pm), Saturday (10am-10pm), Sunday (11am-7pm), and Monday (11am-7pm. Counting Memorial Day's time & a half wage bonus, I made approximately $300 dollars this weekend.

Woo. But there goes gas, food, and yogurt (haha) & I'm breaking even.

It's cool though because I had fun. When work is less tedious, and you can complete your tasks with ease, you've developed skill. Oh yes. First off, lemme just say that babies are soooo cute! :-) Today there was a chubby lil fellow who ran into the break room when the doors swung open, and I had to chase him as he ran away from me, pacifier in his mouth and all. Yesterday another peachy-skin-toned dude was shoppin for shoes wit his mama (1 yr old or less) & was so cute too! Whenever I get bored selling shoesies to the regular customers looking for walking & running shoes, "dunks", and such..I slip into the kids section. Babies are soo adorable!
*sigh*hehe.

I kept telling myself I'd go shopping to the other stores after my shift,
but I get so tired I usually forego those plans.

On Saturday, after my 12 hours shift, I came back to the apartment and Passed out dude. Even though Charisse and Teresa were gone, and I coulda been lonely, I wasn't..

Straight working the whole weekend through.

But something's changed. Full steam ahead. There's something strengthening within me, propelling me, uplifting me, motivating me to move forward. I think it's God. But idk these days I'm so genuinely happy.
I'm thankful. I'm counting my blessings. I'm eating healthy. I'm acting conscious. I'm making good decisions.

Tomorrow classes resume, and I hang up my orange "Team Nike" shirt in favor of my white v-neck tee and notebooks. One weakness this weekend was that I didn't study (little time!) & I want (need) to make up for that!

9th week. Here we go baby. Here we go.

P.s. Lil Francine & lil2 anthony - ate dinner at Ten Rens/ Swirl. It was fun hanging out with them again! "holla back" we say.

I'm drinkin' tea.
ok i'mma peace out now.

I'mma do one of those pointless posts that basically breaks down the schedule of the day & goes off on tangents..haha..lets go*

1. I still work at Nike. For almost 7 months now, you didnt know that? I'm still waiting to visit Niketown before I call it quits. Today I bought daddy swimming trunks & Elainne a pullover. I tried lookin' for a swimsuit for mommy [since mommy & daddy are going on a cruise to Mexico & didnt bother invitin' Elainne & I..haha]

2. The weeks are windin' down. After this here weekend, we're pullin into the ninth week of the quarter. I want to finish strong. I already filled out the paperwork at work for days off. Reason: "Finals week & graduation dates! :)"

3. Teresa told me Charisse & her are not subleasin' for the summer. That means no new roomates & more time at the apt over summer. Low key happy.

4. My love life is non-existent. low key. I'm over here listenin' to Isley Brothers "Living for the love of you"..that's some next level romance type sht wayyy too ahead for these dudes out here who emulate..lilwayne & whatnot. Where are all the classy, intelligent hiphop dues? likeforeals.

5. Our neighbor has a cute smile :-)

6. I'm dancin' more often now. Like aint playinnn' status. Try a lil Biggie, Big Pun, and Teedra Moses and I'll show you what's goin on..haha

7. I really do love Brooklyn.

8. Today I cooked asparagus and ate an orange. Also cereal, gummi bears, and flaming hot cheetos. Weird combo..i knw.

9. I'm paying attention to language and grammatical structure once more via spoken word performance and poetic expression lettin' out our unconcious dreams breath reality.

10. YOU MOVE ME. like the golden age of hip hop. like jeans that fit perfectly. like knowledge, truth, humilty. you move me like the Winter Olympics 2008. like gettin paid; gettin the grade. you move me like dance solid. rock the world. without a doubt. thudner in the sky. sunshine. you most definitely move me.

*NOTE* the weather is amazing. just last week we were rechin' temperatures of 100 and pluggin in our fans. This week the rain is comin', thunder is rollin, and lady's visitin' from Brooklyn are comin thru the Nike store wonderin where all the sunshine went.

Goodnight! ++

1 + 1 = 3

spanish lesson

si usted paró dudando mi amor para usted

todo estaría bien

(one fine day)

you absorb the impact
you soak the details
you filter the negative perceptions and release a concept that is only universal

The backspace key always gets play in times like these.
Times where there is little room for error or doubt.
Times where you just have to go hard
yet a little segment of your body retreats; an
internal coil of an unknown part

A whisper that gently speaks, "I'm not ready"

But before the airwaves envelop its arrival, the speakers blast.
In tune with the melody, doubt has been silenced.

Its time to get down &
back up every word you say.

Re-iterate

Derive true happiness through knowledge of self & thy surroundings. Alotta uncessary drama can be avoided by clearly seeing the true nature & intent behind actions - the overall purpose if you will. I find that if you have a clear sense of where your going, obstacles have no chance of stopping you.

The only person your really fighting against, is yourself.

Free yourself.

Step outside the box; draw outside the lines

So today is Sunday. Finally got my eyeglasses fixed (thank you Charissey!) Originally I was scheduled to work, but I switched with my co-worker so this Sunday is gonna be sweet, believe me. I have a group meeting later, at Rivera, but thats still a few more hours...

Late night obsessions:
Frozen yogurt
Heavy basslines
Brooklyn bullsht
Dudes who get shape ups omg..swing my way if you please, babyboy

a lot of people don't know 'bout this

feeln like a freak, I dance to teedra moses "backstroke". visually set up caution-tape and picture that hahaha

2 a.m. food runs w/ roomies?! yes pleaseee

thats what im talkin bout

We must ‘be’ before we can ‘do’
and we can ‘do’ only to the extent which we ‘are’
and what we ‘are’ depends upon what we ‘think'.

turbulent thursdays

for lack of a better word i'mma stamp today with the 'turbulent' flag; that is - having a chaotic or restless character. it's been a while since i've been swamped with so much work in one day & probably the most stressed i've been all year.

the night before i fell asleep with my right cheek on my econ 103 (macroeconomics) book and woke up in the middle of the dark at 3 a.m., only to realize that i had fallen short of my goal to study for my econ quiz. on top of that, I also had 104 hw due & two quizzes. I'm getting stressed all over again just thinking about it, but to put the picture together..I was wildn' out all day, multi-tasking, calling/texting, re-arranging sht but you knw..you give it your best shot & at the end of the day - be satisfied with that [revision: 5 minutes after I wrote this I realized that with proper preparation, you can tackle anything..to stress is uncessary]

And if not? live & learn - trial & error - walk & do

It's 9:51 I'm at my desk. The windows are open, the breeze is making its way in. The speakers are up.."moment of truth" comes on..tropicana lemonade is on my right..My white tee is rolled up, tryna be a tank..my black skirt is all wrinkled..I'm starting to relax.."I needed peace of mind but I settled for beats and rhymes"

oops

Don't get mad if I start bloggin alot. I guess I can use this as a rough draft spot, also. I oversaturated my other blog with hip hop. Crazy hip hop .. check one two and you don't stop

YAY

:-)
YAY! In many ways blogging is therapeutic in a sense that you let out all that accumulated steam, and just say whatever is on your mind. What's even sweeter is when you know aint nobody gonna read it so your free to make no sense.
WORD LIFE!

Things I say alot:
"pshhh!.."
"how you gonna.."
"dude is.." (insert adjective here. for example: "dude is funny"}
"Sista fren"
"suck a dick" (sue me)
"sue me"

Things I eat:
-Fruit & Cream oatmeal (standard procedure)
-Special K Yogurt Cereal w/ Soymilk
-Yogurt, all flavors and mad toppings (sue me)

Today I woke up & the sun finally decided to come through the spot. Finally!
It's been overcast the past few days and somewhat chilly.
It's the seventh week, and there literally isn't a day that goes by that I, or my roomates, forget to mention the pressing time constraint in relation to our limited living arrangements here in Riverside. After four years, the college lifestyle is embedded and programmed into our lives; we've managed to assimilate sleepless nights into the constant school grind.
Today is a classic example of the days that I will dearly miss.
I had 5 classes, and two got cancelled, and I cancelled the other two myself (don't worry about it) so we decided to hit up Swirl yet again (sue me)

Of course, our current obsession is chicken tacos at Los Jilbertos so we had that for lunch too. We decided to erect a facebook group called "fatties unite" in honor of our shameful ways. Of course, we're all jokes for days yo. Especially Charisse and I. You get us going with our back to back jokes, and you've stepped into the cipher forreal. The lmao cipher that is! (intentionally sounding dumb)
Anyway we headed back to the aparment, ate, and watched a movie. Chilled to the maximum afterwards.

A nice little rest & we back on it.
Excuse me while I drink some tea.
A little breather and I'll be back on it.

Update

I'm in my prime b.

Rawness

I like my wordlife blog better than yours.
Jk. I feel like no one reads this, thus everything is pure & unfiltered & RAW RAW RAW!

Random:
#1 Tomorrow is a Friday night and your girl will be studying. My roomates and I will forego the drankin' escapades in favor of knowledge attaining activites. Word life.
#2 Dang yo. I don't know what it is, but I'mma sucka for dudes in new era fitteds.
Not the annoying dudes who swear they're fresh, I'm talkin bout the low-key boy next door humble honey buzz.
#3 Did I mention I'mma sucka for 'honey' aNything.
#4 To estimate my overall expenditure at Swirl (local frozen yogurt joint) for the past 2 months: ($5/day x 5 x 7)= $175. shtttt that aint a joke. I need to refrain from sweet & delicious thangs.
#5 fell off with almost every relationship I've established in my college career. Those friendships that seemed to brighten my days in the past have turned into blurry memores. And for this, there is no one to blame but time. I tried to put her in a chokehold, but she's a tricky bee.
#6 Yo I feel like I can go on and on about number 2. Dudes are like my second sun.
It's straight up embarrasing how I admire they fire hahahah. SWOON.
#7 To balance everything out, let it be known that I don't like ugly dudes.

#8 Okay number 7 was not fair and somewhat harsh, yet take note that its 2:20 a.m.
and these are unfiltered thoughts. And with that I bid thee adieu, my late night studies are begging my brain for more.

We go on and on into the night cause we passionate like that.
Late! :-)

I'm about the business baby

I smashed my 109 midterm like an Idaho po-ta-toe.

I hope I did well!

week 6

week 6 in your area.

It never fails to amaze me, how fast the quarter plays out.
Midterms are slowing down; I'm a the rate of one per week
until mid-May.

On Friday I had dinner at Life Cafe with Lil Francine & her Lil Anthony. We split fish and chicken steak dinners LOL, took pictures, was all cute, and had fun! I'm so thankful for Lil,she's soo nice & sweet! And she even gave me a picture frame that was designed for me, from last year's installs. They had Big/Lil Retreat the next day, so we couldn't go out too late (but we still managed to get Swirl haha).

Swirl is the local frozen yogurt shop that just opened a month or so ago YET
I am on the top 5 customers list according to the owner. Last week, I hit the place up Monday-Friday..my frozen yogurt addiction is so strong!..I was planning to retire in the upcoming week but around 11:30 a.m. today Teresa came home with a craving & told me to get ready..and of course I coudn't say no..:-)

Saturday & Sunday I worked.
On Saturday Charisse & I went shopping to buy a white budgie bird!
The little one is named Shiroi, Japanase for 'white'.
We left the apartment around 6 and didn't end our escapade until 10-ish.
Other items purchased:
-Oscar de La Renta 2-piece floral intimates
-V neck white tee (5 pack) FINALLY!
-popsicles
-Belt (Charisse)

On Sunday, APO helda a Stussy Sale event at Lot 30 and of course we took full advantage of that. Charisse and I spent over a hundred dollas, and baked in the sun.
Charisse cooks like a tomato while I get downwit tha brown. hahaha. Lil Francine was there too! I amassed a nice little collection of gear, ranging from two stussy-undftd fitteds, 3 tees, and a Stussy 'International' Blck tote. Good shtttt.

And Last night, as usual, I bumped my jams..just gettin' the vibe & mind right.
Next thing you know our neighbor Above (I call him that) knocks on our door and tells me to lower the music or he'll call the cops. Let me just say that I am NOT cool wit that. The second you tell me to lower my music, I gotta question our friendship. like freals. Whateva, I still like him hahaha.

p.s. I gotta study for my 109 tomorrowwwww.

first off

No pretense, No glass, No self-imposed restrictions.
Everything shines through raw, all insight offered
is translucent, it comes from within.

One time for your mind. And another one for ya mind.
I'mma hip hop lovin' honey.
21.
Filipina-American.
Business Administration, soon to be graduate
& I live life like its Golden.
Nothin' spoon fed, we shapin the art of life
that we holdin' and moldin'.

"Word life" is a segmented blog, from the original
bonitastreet.blogspot.com.
It's purpose is to document the finer details of life,
from the everyday hussle & struggle of Spring 2008, to
the advancement of Universal love.
Exploratory material. Raw material. Press on.
"Only the Real Survive!"